Sunday, October 4, 2015

Emotions and Darkness to Movement






There are so many emotions that go along with depression:

* Fatigue
* Anger
* Decreased or increased appetite
* Lack of deep sleep or oversleeping
* Loss of desire to do anything
* Not wanting to be around people
* Hopelessness (Feeling like your in a dark hole and can't get out)
* Helplessness

I could actually go on and on, but these are the some of the main feelings attached to depression.  You've more than likely heard the phrase "I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel"; this is so true for people with depression.  All we can see is darkness; the kind of darkness that you can't see your hand in front of you.  It's suffocating.  It's so dark you are afraid to move.  So what happens many times is we don't move.  You don't want anyone to have to come get you from the darkness because you are embarrassed that you are there AND embarrassed or ashamed that you have to ask for help.  Plus if you stay still nothing worse can happen to you, but if you don't move nothing good will happen either.

So what do you do?

Take the first step.  I know! I know!  No pun intended with the title "Walkinigtthru".  However, it is true.  The first step could be:
* Just to get out of bed in the morning
* Put on clothes or makeup
* Pray (even if all you can say is "help" or "Jesus"
* Call a friend
* Go to work
* Go to the doctor
* Say one good thing about yourself

I'm the type of person if I have a project I think about the project as a whole; I don't think small or one thing or one step at a time.  I would think 'I want to stop being depressed'.  So instead of taking one of those at a time; I'm looking way ahead and trying to figure out how to do all of them and get to the end all at once. Then......I'm overwhelmed again and say 'what's the use' and I don't do anything.  Hence, one step at a time.

This takes practice and practice and practice.  I promise eventually it will become easier.  Believe me, when people would tell me what I'm telling you I would get so frustrated.  I felt like one step is not enough, but one step is too much.  Please trust me when I say you are worth the effort!!!!!  

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